Coffee 907g ended in 3 weeks

I bought a 907g pack of coffee beans at Costco and the pack ended in 3 weeks. 3-week has 21 days and I consumed about 43g every day. Since I brew 5,6 cups of coffee from 43g coffee beans and I have two coffee breaks in a day, that means I drink 3 cups of coffee. The number of cups matches my feelings. Maybe I have too much drink coffee. 

Hungry

It's not all bad. I should pile small results up now. In recent weeks, my progress has not been going well. However, if I rearrange my small results, I must get a good result. I believe that and try to do this although I am really tired. 

Quit my favorite game

My morning routine is important, and it has changed in recent days because of the change in my life. When my phone had gone a few weeks ago, I stopped playing games in my morning routine. Then, my free time became longer than before, and I had no stress about not touching. An accident makes a change. This change may affect my life better. 

Unexpectedly friend appeared

I have forgotten to update this blog for two days. 

A few days ago, I went to a favorite izakaya. I expected that no people would appear at the time because it was heavy rain and not to eat, but really unexpectedly, a friend seated and drank a glass of sake. I was surprised. 

I have a strange connection with him.

This night

Many foreigners wore costumes around my office. I believed the people who wore costumes were only Japanese, but there were also many foreigners. 

Reading Reading Reading

I needed to read some papers to study my topic, but I did not read them until now, so I read them suddenly. It was a very tough job.

Pie

I had never heard the words "Savory pie" until today.  

Because I have little English vocabulary, I am trying to improve my skills, which means studying a little. Today, I used the word "pie" to indicate a dessert, but a friend did not understand which sweet or salty pie it was. I knew meat pie but I did not recognize meat pie as "pie" because it was not sweet, and so I did not understand why the friend asked me which sweet or salty is. Then, another friend taught me the words "Savory pie" which indicates any salty pie. So, I was surprised that pie indicates the texture but not any taste type. That was very interesting. 

VR

I've heard that thanks to VR avatars, people are now able to interact with people without having to worry about their innate or acquired appearance or functions, and I feel like that's true. So, humanity becomes more important than appearance in the VR era. 

Option

I was surprised that, while I lost many friends' addresses, no one had sent me a message about a lost connection, but the view count of this blog increased. That means many people enjoy this diary of an unknown person. I believe I got one when I lost another. In this case, I lost many friends list, but I knew other people connected with me. 

Walk

A few days ago, I walked 20km at midnight. I saw a few people sleeping on the road. I realized it had become a good season. I could not imagine sleeping outside in summer because it was too hot. Now, it was perfect to sleep. It is in good condition. 

New phone

Since my ex-phone was broken, I bought a new one. All account was initialized and I lost some friends' connections. If my friends who connected with only LINE or FB watch this blog, please send an email to nitomaina@gmail.com, this address is a managing address. 

Cannot access all data

Since my phone was broken, I cannot access the data on the phone. And, some connections with friends were lost because I did not save some accounts, such as Line, x, games, etc. I believe God said to me "You should concentrate on fewer things than now" and gave me a chance to make new better connections. 

Completely broken

My phone was completely broken now. 

My phone

Suddenly, my phone did not respond to any touches. Since I had no idea why. And, I was not sure which hardware or software had problems. 

Since I could not use it, I just gave it a break for more than 1 hour. Then, it reacted touches. But, the responses did not smooth, but it was possible to control. Actually, the display and touch panel on the phone were broken and had a lot of cracks. So, the hardware might have a problem with the touch response. Simultaneously, the software might have a problem since it reacted after a break. 

In any case, it was gone. I need a new one. 

Taxi

From early morning to midnight yesterday, I had no free time. I was exhausted, so I slept on a train that I was supposed to take back and the train returned to the opposite side. I woke up after the last train finished and I had to go back by taxi. The taxi fee was very expensive but there was another way. Very sad. 

A break

Yesterday, I did not write this diary because there are too many jobs. 

Recently, I have used nanobind to connect C++ and Python. Still, I did not know how to return multiple values from C++ functions to Python and I separated an optimal function into some tiny functions, which is not efficient. Yesterday, I really needed to implement multiple values returned from a function, and I read the nanobind document again. Then, I knew to use "tuple." It can be prepared with make_tuple in C++ and it can be received by Python. By using it, efficient coding was enabled. 

Voice

I was really surprised by a friend's voice when he sang a song. I knew voice was an important component of shows at the time. And, I really think to practice my good voice. It makes something move at an important timing. 

Known

When something benefits people, they praise it. When something is interesting for people, they scold. So, people have implicit logic. If you only think that this is directly connected to people's emotions, you may see that humans are creatures of emotion, but in reality, I believe that we are all narcissistic people who consider our own morals to be just. 

Therefore, being around people who only praise all will not accomplish anything and will often just be a waste of time.

Nice members

I feel lucky because I have such great friends. They support me when I face problems. 

Recently, I talked about various things with a foreign friend. I was able to learn a lot about Hong Kong. I won't write anything specific, but I realized that there are many things I don't know. I believe that "knowledge of ignorance" comes from good friends.

Driving

I had been in a villa with friends for two days. To get there, I drove about 200 km. The drive got me tired, but I saw fantastic night sights and sea views.

And, we had some events. One of them is a study meeting for future demands. I understood what the next stage was and should prepare for it.

Strange smell

I experienced a strange thing. At midnight, an earthquake occurred. A few minutes before the earthquake, I felt a cloudy smell similar to glue. When I felt the smell, I looked for where it came from but didn't find it. Maybe, the smell came from the earthquake. 

People have the ability to detect something before it happens. We have to be careful if we feel something is different from usual. 

A break

 I had to take a break but drank some cups of beer and sake. That made me exhausted. Good night. 

From a teacher

I started to study something of companies with a teacher for economy.

She tell me a lot of how to change mentality. 

I got a lot of messages but the main message is change to be good. For the change, we have to stop all before change.

It's a real.

Knowing difference is

Most people don't mind but any difference is important. 

For example, caramelization and the Maillard reaction are both reactions that brown foods. However, they are different. Caramelization is a word for only a change in sugar. On the other hand, the Maillard reaction is a strange phenomenon that occurs when amino acids such as proteins are heated. They are different reactions. However, many people use the word, Caramelization not to change sugar.

Poop and fart come from the same place, but they're different.

Recognizing a difference is important for living good. 

Beauty

I understood appearance is an important factor when people talk in person. I saw a friend who I did not see but I have talked with text. I expected the friend to be a man but one in the real is not a man. It was very surprised and I got high impact from the atmosphere of the person. Beauty is justice. 

Keeping

I faced an essential problem for days and I kept thinking of a good solution but it wasn't coming soon. Today, I got a trigger of the solution. A good idea comes after keeping thought. 

Maybe false but interesting story

I've heard an interesting talk about intelligence from a friend. According to this talk, adults wearing clothes that don't match their body or seasons tend to have borderline intelligence and the borderline people cannot consider their clothes and environment. That was very interesting. 

Surely, many kids wear clothes that don't match the environment and generally do not have high intelligence. There may be a relationship between intelligence and clothes. 

So, I looked for documents about this; however, no documents were particularly relevant. I wonder if it was just a few people's experiences because some websites and videos said only. That was interesting, but I am not sure if it is real. 

Bicycles

I saw a police officer stop bicycles on the sidewalk in Shibuya. The police officer said bicycles must not run on the sidewalk and people must walk pushing bicycles on the sidewalk. I saw a perfect scene because bicycles running on the sidewalk are dangerous.

Stop the trigger

Life is short. I know that. And, I know social media kills my important time. Also, I have realized video content kills more. Moreover, if I feel a fried brain, the effect is stronger.

But I can't avoid the attack now because I am mentally weak. Even if one content is a short video, recent media show a series of short videos, which makes strong stimulation. 

To protect myself, I need mental strength. As the first step, from now on, I will stop listening to music in the daytime. I am not sure if it's effective or not, but I realized music is one trigger to other contents in social media.

being strong

When I have felt tired, I become more aggressive. If I find a stupid thing or a joke in some media, I normally laugh and feel at peace, but when I'm tired, I often feel like I'm wasting my time and irritated. 

However, smart people don't approach irritated people, so I have to train my humanity so that I don't get irritated even when I'm tired.

Nothing special

I can't remember what I did all day. I wonder if I was sleeping.

Pangasius

I casually bought a fillet of white fish at a supermarket. The front side of the package showed it was just white fish, but didn't show what it was. I thought most of the white fish we could buy at the supermarket were deep-sea fish. I believed it was seafood and bought it. 

But when I had it the first bite, I noticed a difference. It was very tasty but it had a slightly muddy smell, and I felt it was more like a freshwater fish than a sea fish. Since I didn't experience the feeling from the tastes of sea fishes, I was curious about what fish it was, and I looked at the notation on the package. It showed Pangasius. Because I didn't know the name, I searched for the name. It was a catfish from overseas. 

I didn't know a catfish is tasty. That was an interesting happening. Because I don't usually buy fish, it was a rare case. In the rare case, I got excited and I realized I was lucky. Something new brings me luck. Surely, I will buy it again. 

Hurt

When I do something in a different environment, I have to use what I always used, otherwise I won't perform at my best. Today, I couldn't do my best and hurt myself a little.

I will consider this a knowledge and use what I am familiar with in the future.

Lost day

I felt bad yesterday because of too much alcohol and I was not able to work well. Though I do not have enough time to finish an important work by a deadline, drinking makes me lose more time. I will stop drinking more. I know I cannot stop but try it from now. Every challenge is valuable. 

Any challenge becomes an easy task if there is a partner for that. The most difficult point of any challenge is to make the partner. I can do it when I get one. So, by the day, I will give up. 

Morning

If I don't sleep, I can't concentrate. Humans need sleep.

However, I ended up drinking until morning. Very bad. Too tired. 

Verge

I couldn't stop coughing all day. My throat was itchy. That was cold but I thought it was on the verge of recovery judging from this condition. I am taking vitamins and staying up all night to heal and be active. A person on the verge shouldn't sleep.

Less time

I saw a bus stop move to a different place by redevelopment of the city. Because it was the first time, I was surprised. If I were a user who didn't know anything, I would not realize that. 

And when my shoelaces came undone and I tied them, I noticed my shoelaces were dirty. I have to clean them. 

I notice many things when I have less time. 

Not going well is fun

Since the work I have to finish is too heavy, I do not have enough sleeping time. However, I am enjoying this situation. This is fun. And I caught a cold. Everything is not going well, which means this world is still exciting and there are many unexpected things. 

Stimulation

I think the most efficient way to learn algorithms is to read the source code. However, since there are many languages ​​and styles of programming, I feel that the level of difficulty is increasing. So in recent years, I have avoided reading the source code. 

On the other hand, it is difficult to continue avoiding studying. So today I had to touch the code for the noise I wanted to use. 

I thought noise theory was too difficult to understand.

However, once I started reading it, I was able to understand it. Probably, journaling in English and writing programs in various styles affected me. I realized that new stimulation is essential to life.

Not end

Creativity shines brilliantly when the heart is broken. It is good that things don't go well. That is human. 

But, some people blame others for things that don't go well. They are not human, they're nothing. When things go wrong, if we look for the cause, the problem lies somewhere else. The only choice is to look for it in ourselves or others.

I respect people who can break their own hearts. I understood it better today. 

Cleaning room again

I cleaned my room a week ago and it quickly became a mess. So, I cleaned my room today as well. I feel better than before. Cleaning the room is good. The available space in the room becomes larger. It makes me feel better. 

Change

I started working in English. I have to keep the tone flat. Recently, I have been using English more and more often, so my life is changing somehow.

Anyway I drank a lot.

Excuse to run away

I was convinced we should not trust people who claim to have communication problems. Ultimately, it will be an excuse to run away. 

By the way, I didn't achieve my goal in recent years. The reason is simple, just I didn't do that. I made excuses to run away from my goal. Originally, I just would do it. I recognized many reasons. That meant it was possible to avoid the problems. I need to act more seriously to achieve my goal. First, I attempt to get good sleep. 

Sick

I felt sick and got a high fever, so I went to the clinic to find out if it was corona or flu today. Yesterday, I thought only a pollen allergy caused sickness, so I took medicines for the allergy. But, only the sneezing stopped after I took the medicines. My throat hurt and the fever continued. I wondered if it was another possibility. But, the checked results showed neither was the case. It was just cold-sick. Anyway, I felt bad. A gallon of runny nose came out in a day. I would like to be able to produce that much other fluid. 

There was the Jugoya full moon today. After the rain, I looked up at the sky. I remembered something from the past when I looked at the moon. The moon had not changed since then. 

Dead

As a scary experience, I found traces that my accounts on social media were hijacked. My accounts wrote something at DMs during I had not touched them at midnight and daytime. In addition, the messages were deleted and I did not know what the accounts sent. There is a strong possibility of a prank from hacking friends, so I will observe what happens. 

By the way, my pollen allergy started. My nose won't stop running and I'm sneezing too. I am dead. 

Valuable

Two weeks had passed since I started writing in my diary. Before starting the diary, I did not remember what I had done in the day. But, I became more aware of daily events after starting it. I recognized that I had many events in days but I did not have memory for the events. By the recognition, the diary is more valuable for me. 

Today I went to a Japanese Western-style izakaya that serves super delicious hamburgers. The owner chief of the izakaya is an interesting person and seems to really like cooking. And he had a bad tongue, which meant I sometimes could not catch some words he said. 

One friend also likes cooking and has a bad tongue. I thought he was just unique but after I met the above chief, I wondered if cooking is related to tongue speed. Of course, although those are not directly related, when thinking speed in cooking is very fast, the motion of the tongue cannot follow the thinking. If people do that in a long time, there is a possibility to get a bad tongue. Not only cooking, it may be a reason that people who need speed have bad tongue. 

Last train

At midnight, I saw a train I must have taken had left at the station platform because it was the last one. But I did not give up. I believed any trains to stations near my home, so I searched for them. I found another line I do not usually use but there was no way other than it, so I tried it though I did not know about it. As I expected, I took the wrong train. So, I did not reach the goal. The place is Akihabara. In Akihabara, there is a favorite ramen restaurant. So, I ate a donburi of ramen and a chawan of rice. After eating them, finally, I took a taxi. That was a kind of good experience. 

Before I saw the last train, I studied a kind of human communication with the professional team. In the workshop, I learned again that Approval-Seeking People often believe that their stories and opinions are correct and do not doubt them, and tend to hate people having more knowledge. It's very scary, but it's easy to fall into such a situation. All people have a subconscious need for approval. To get approval, we need to continue challenges and study well. I can't do it. Impossible. 

Then, I lost my last train. That's great timing. 

Unknown people

I have attended several academic or industrial conferences in recent weeks, and I sometimes attended two or more including online in a day. Since I saw many people and talked to them, I got many new topics now. 

There is an interesting one. This is about fraud. According to this case, a man is a troublemaker anywhere, disturbing someone by making a false declaration or attacking someone. People who know about him do not talk about him because they do not want others to think related to him. Since no one stops it, some companies employ him with his history including incorrect information. When he starts to work, he starts to cause a lot of trouble immediately because he does not have enough ability. Then the companies decide to stop employing him. But, after he gets fired, he brings a lawsuit soon. Since the companies do not want to be related to him, they pay money to avoid lawsuits. 

Though this process is a fraud, employees are strong in Japanese law and no company deals strongly with it. General thinking, he cannot get jobs again. But, in real, he gets jobs and the fraus again. 

Honestly, I had heard about other cases like this type before this case. This means some troublemakers cause fraud in many companies. It is unpleasant.

We know that people like him cannot continue the fraud until older. In addition, many people are avoiding this type. Surely this type will die alone. Maybe, to this type, there is no good solution. The best solution might be ignoring it. If we completely ignore it, it attacks us. So, we should stop talking as soon as possible and talk to others.  

Well, I think it is better not to get involved with unknown people. 

Post

I sent a letter through a post office. When I did it, I noticed a small change. When I sent a letter a few years ago, it took about a day to reach the destination if it was close. But now, it takes about two or more days and the post office does not deliver on holidays. If I had only the old feeling, the letter would not be delivered at the necessary time. I felt the work-life balance was modified to be safe. 

I felt everything changed. 

As another change, I cannot interact well with people who I do not know. Recently, a girl has been sending me some messages about photos I took through social media. According to the messages, she was interested in Japanese foods and culture, and she sent a contact message because my photos were nice. I was wondering if she was a real human, if she was a real woman, and if she was not crazy. I sometimes replied to her first but now I am ignoring her because it is a hassle. She still sends messages to me while I do not reply. 

New

I was drained and not feeling well because I worked too actively. Though I went to a small party with a friend, I couldn't enjoy it as much as usual. But, that was not only bad thing.  

In a few days, many things happened and I got stimulation anywhere. That was good instead of tired. Especially, much stimulation brought me a term of digital detox and an opportunity to recall my fighting spirit. And, I decided a new goal. 

Good people bring me good stimulation. 

Met

Hi friends, this post got attention in an instant by fans of this blog. I researched where people watch this post with an analytic tool. And then, I was surprised. Many US and Czech people watch it. I have no idea why a lot of people did it because this post only described a good man who makes good effects for me. Maybe he has a supernatural charm, and he got attracted by many people. So, I want to write more details here. 

I had a very smart friend. Because of his genius, he naturally caused unexpected events. It was not all good, but I liked his story. 

He had a group of friends around him and everything was fascinating. Since he was gentle, he believed that even if a person is super crazy, it will always goes good direction. Many people were helped by this thought. Of course, he had been hit with many terribly unpleasant problems. But, he handled them all with an iron heart. It was difficult to imitate him. I respected him. 

However, ever since he got involved with a super crazy person, he met more trouble, including being net-stalker and being attacked with false rumors. Even if it is an iron heart, human is breakable. He was a human. This day was the anniversary of his death. And I suddenly remembered this story on that day. His hobby was going to the morning cabaret. When I saw this morning sky, I suddenly remembered this. 

Good day

I will be more active in publishing good papers. I was stimulated by a lot of good research. 

By the way, I got drunk by bad drinks. I finished drinking. 

Removing mites

It was an ordinary day. We had many meetings and the work progressed. It was not an easy day, but it was normal and it meant a good day.

Anyway, when I woke up this morning, I wasn't bitten by insects. I am still cleaning the room where I had slept now, so I slept in another room with the cleaned futon. I noticed that the mites were removed from the futon.

This is a small change, but the change visualize the value of the action.

Bouldering

I went bouldering in a gym for the first time in a while. The trigger is a talk with a friend. When I was drinking with the friend, he mentioned his son had started bouldering. In the talk, I replied that I had been doing it too, and then, we decided to try bouldering together. It was just a few days ago, but he asked me about it today.

We decided to climb the outside wall around noon. The weather forecast said it wouldn't be that too hot, but the reality was different. After sweating outside for about an hour, I felt like giving up. Since it was our first time, we talked about how to start, how to shift my weight, etc., and ended up doing it lightly. Although it was a short time, it was fun to exercise outside.

Through bouldering this time, I understood one problem of feeling. Generally, it is quite difficult to keep trying to challenge something that we stumbled on once and could not solve for a while. I think motivation is a type of confidence. A lack of self-confidence leads to a lack of motivation. And the inability to do anything comes. Then, weak people look for causes other than themselves.

I think the reason why blame-takers are often lacking in ability is because they cannot take on challenges. That's why it's very difficult to try hard and overcome our defeat, but it's also worth it.

Cleaning day

My room may have mites or mosquitoes because I got some itchy bites. I wanted to kill them all, so I decided to clean my room. I first washed the futon sheets and the futon. Next, I moved the furniture away and cleaned everything on the floor. I spent 5 hours on them. I sneezed many times because of the dust. I did not finish the cleaning but it was good try for me. 

Liver

In this morning, I realized that my eyes were not feeling well, including blurred vision and more nearsightedness than before. I thought it was presbyopia, but presbyopia causes farsightedness, so this symptom doesn't match. Anything didn't even bump into my eyes or I have any direct thoughts about it. So, I tried to think more broadly. I assumed that something I have changed recently affects my eyes. The biggest change was the amount of alcohol. I drank so much that my bottom right flank hurts. That is near the liver. I believed the liver could not affect the eyes, but I searched it with Google. Then, I saw it was related. It was written that ``If there is an abnormality in liver function, in addition to eye fatigue, blurred vision, and decreased vision, the whites of the eyes become bloodshot, and wrinkles and dark circles tend to appear around the eyes.'' I thought this was possible, but I'll take it as if I just need a little break.

When I searched it with Google, the search predictions were too annoying, so I decided to initialize my history. I kept my login data and bookmarks, so it's not an inconvenience, and it's much more comfortable because it's less annoying. 

Every new study stimulates me

I started studying a new topic: accounting treatment. Today I attended a conference about this. Though any new study makes me tired, complex tax studies were more than others. But this study is useful anytime, anywhere. In addition, through this study, I understood why companies make us do complicated payment processes as our own work. That is reasonable. 

As another topic, I read all of My Home Hero, which is manga. The ending is unclear. Readers cannot read what Tetsuo will be sentenced. In the end, there are pros and cons but I didn't think it was bad. I think Tetsuo was sentenced to death. And, Kasen became crazy or something like that. So, only the son appears the last. Anyway, we do not know what happened in the story because it is a manga. The story was very sad but its flow was perfect for me. 

Good day

In the morning, I pulled weeds with my neighbors because in recent days the weeds were rotten, and the color of the weeds had changed to brown. The appearance was not good. So, I was glad it became clean. But I got bitten by a lot of insects. It's itchy all the time. I need to give up to get good something. 

As another topic, on my way home, I happened to meet the owner and his wife of the store where I often buy alcohol. Looks like he was on his way home from drinking. It was fresh to me because I had never seen that couple drinking outside. Next time I visit, I think I'll ask what they drink at the restaurant.

Just normal day

It is hard to write a page like a diary at the end of the day because I am sleepy and remembering many is impossible. When something happens, I need a memo to keep the memory. 

At noon, I went for a dental checkup. There were no problems in my mouth, but a change will happen. The dental hygienist who I get checked every time will be moved to another store. I know changing anything is an opportunity to see a new one. Maybe, it is a timing of something.  

As another topic, I heard the Japanese word "一億総白痴化" which means TV shows make all Japanese idiots. When I heard the word, I remembered Japanese TV shows are funnier than those in other countries. The funny contents take away the watchers' time. Taking time away kills time to study anything. Killing study time makes idiots. Surely now it does not result in only Japanese TV shows. All videos watched through smartphones have the same effect. The videos do not give the user time to do anything or think something. Probably, reading books or web pages is different because it is not only about receiving anything but catching characters on the page by readers. In other words, readers need to do the action by themselves when reading books or web pages. Writing is also different from watching videos. Anyway, I try to keep time to think about something. 

Lunch as adventure

Today I had some interesting experiences from the morning, but I forgot the experience. My memory is limited. All of my memories are from noon.

At lunch, I went to a Chinese restaurant I had never been to. The restaurant was scored by many people in Google Maps and the average score was good. Since I believed the score, I chose it. The waiting time was short, and the taste of the dishes was not bad. That's good. But, that's not surprising. Then I realize an important thing. I want a feeling of adventure even if it is lunch. I should not determine lunch by the score because it is the same as giving up on adventure. From today, I keep going for lunch with a feeling of adventure. 

So, I went to another Chinese restaurant I had never been to in the evening. I only know the name of the restaurant but I did not know the evaluation. The situation is like an adventurer only knows the entrance to the cave and has never entered it. That was really adventure. 

But, it was closed.

So I ended up going to a nearby Soba restaurant I had never been to. That was also an adventure. I turned cash into a new experience. Then I won. The food and drinks were very good. I want this type of experience more. I want a friend to go out to restaurants with.