Dryness in winter

My place is dry this season, which makes my eyes dry and tired quickly. So keeping the same place or sitting at my desk for a long time is hard. It is a critical issue for my work style.

Unexpectedly, I realized that wearing a mask is a good way to prevent dry eyes. Possibly, the mask keeps humidity near the face. In addition, the mask keeps temperature, which helps move outside. 

I usually wear a mask to keep myself comfortable. 

Donating blood at the end of 2024

I went to a blood donation at the end of 2024, an event that gave attendees special goods. One was a white snake toy as a souvenir for 2025 because the year is the snake year in the zodiac. The toy is so cute and I like it. The toy is not expensive but I feel its value. I know many people can sympathize with the feeling but some people cannot understand this because of lack of imagination. This year, I avoid relating with the type of people as much as possible. I want to keep happy. 

Wrinting a letter is like a game

As a traditional Japanese culture for a New Year greeting, there is Nenga-jo, a letter on the New Year term. Nenga-jo has some writing manners. One should avoid using commas and periods because these mean stopping and ends. I do not make sense but it is a manner. I need to make appropriate sentences that mean everything I want to convey. If I use commas and periods, people who receive my letter will think I have no idea about manners. It is like a game with a limitation. This case limits short sentences while these mean everything I want to say. 

On the other hand, ignoring the manner might be justice. Maybe, this manner naturally occurred in people who stopped manually writing long sentences to many addresses. Writing messages is hard work surely. If the manner did not exist, many people would give up. So, the manner looked reasonable. But now, we can use a printer instead of writing something by hand. So, we do not need the manner. A lot of messages can be put into a letter. 

In addition, in recent years, many people have stopped sending Nenga-jo letters. That means people who receive them tend to be less. So, people get more time to read each letter. 

My conclusion is that putting a lot of messages into a letter is righteous because the letter is a good opportunity to convey everything easily. 

Balance

I heard a story that is hard to tell if it is true or not, that instant foods these days are well-balanced in nutrition, and that people who eat them all the time are healthier than people who cook half-heartedly at home or eat in restaurants, but I like this story. I am probably not the only one who likes this kind of thing, but I think a lot of people like it. In my opinion, it is interesting to consider the stories that are hard to tell if they are true or not. It is like solving a mystery.

Sometimes, it is too much and not funny. This is clearly a lie told by a crazy person, and I just think it is childish or stupid. I do not correct the lie every time. I just ignore it.

What is good about it is that the stories told by drunk people or people with borderline intelligence have a background that makes them believable, but we have to think carefully to know if they're nonsense or not. It is like an interesting examination. The fun part is that sometimes adults seem to believe things without filtering them out. If they attend a drinking party, it is entertaining from the chaos.

Speaking of dubious stories, I think the theory about the speed at which Santa Claus travels that is said to be the norm is quite clever. It is said to be 8 million or 9 million kilometers per hour. There are several assumptions, but one is that Santa Claus travels alone. We must never think of it as a franchise like McDonald's. If we think of it as a franchise, the assumptions collapse with parallelization and you do not know what speed they're thinking about. In fact, since each household has one Santa Claus, it is okay to make this comment, but I do not want to criticize the assumptions of the game, and this is fine as a way to enjoy it. I want to know more about the kinds of playful and exquisite stories.

By the way, anyone with a suitable brain can understand the story about instant food at the beginning. If we eat a single food, some ingredients will pile up, and the balance will be broken. 

If we do not take other care, such as adding other ingredients, we will get sick. There is a balanced complete food, but it is not the kind of taste or texture that we can eat continuously. In the end, the conclusion is that it is good to eat a variety of things. 

It is good to eat meat, vegetables, and carbohydrates. I feel that likes and dislikes tend to be out of balance everywhere. There are people who judge not only food, but also things and relationships based on likes and dislikes alone, but for these people, well, Namu Amida Butsu.

Slept

I drank many cups of Japanese sake in a friend's room and accidentally slept there. Surely, I was tired because I did not sleep well before the day. While I slept, another friend took care of me and bought a cup of noodles and bottled water for me in the early morning. 

I drank too much alcohol. Really I need to change. 

It was a perfect day. 

Pushup

Pushup was my favorite workout but I had not done that in a long time. Yesterday, I had a chance to do pushups. My friend did pushups suddenly near me. I got stimulated by the action, and I did it together. While I could do that 50 times before, I now cannot do it 40 times. Time makes changes. I try to make my body that can do again. 

This week

I got good inspiration from a friend in a meeting. I have not attended any meetings frequently because I have been too busy. But I participated in this meeting because I reserved it before I got busy. I am lucky. I got a good opportunity. The inspiration pushes me forward. 

First met Akira

I have heard the name of this movie, Akira, which is well-known as a high-impact movie. Some friends said that people who touch the graphics field need to watch it; however, I have not had a chance to watch it. Accidentally, I watched it on YouTube.

The movie was fantastic and represented unstable peace. The first section was like two curves of the stories and made the intersection of the two curves. But, the story was hidden. It was very mysterious. I did not know all. 

The next section was like developing the intersection into another dimension. In the term, many mysteries appeared, the answers came out, and the story was developed. 

The story to the last was chaos. 

I love SOL. 

Also, the representation of every light in the movie was great. Surely, it was the highest-impact animation in my life. 

Contact

I try to do everything I want to do, but I don't have the capacity to do it all, so I have a crazy schedule. Due to this schedule, I haven't had enough time to update this blog lately. 

A few days ago, I received an email from a great, close friend who I lost the address by breaking my phone. This was a great happening in my life. I gave up contact once. So something quite exciting happened.

There were some other good things as well. Life is a place where bad things happen and good things happen too.

Low productivity

Productivity can be defined as the quality or quantity of results per given effort. Therefore, people say it is important to increase productivity at work and consider only productivity if you do anything.  

On the other hand, there have been many days when I have not gotten any results. I feel sad because the words remind me that the jobs are meaningless. But, I am a professional and I try to finish the jobs even if I know they are meaningless. 

Also, I am sad that there is no my side for the jobs. 

Life

Surely, I have a certain progress but it is too hard to make the progress. This is life. 

Carrot

When I ate fried rice at my favorite Chinese restaurant, I noticed that the carrots were very soft and had a nice texture. When I thought about the reason why it was good, I concluded that it was because it was cooked at a high temperature for a moment. When I think back on it, I realized that the carrots at the Chinese restaurant were soft.

Physically tired

No matter how much I sleep, I cannot relieve my tiredness. My body feels heavy all the time.

Breaking

My washing machine drainage became bad. 

I tried washing several parts to fix it, and a lot of dirt was removed but it did not work.

And, my hands are ruined from cleaning.

New trial

Everything is changing, but what I enjoy studying does not change. Now I have a new interest, and I am trying to start it. I knew any trial would not be easy, but I wanted to enjoy it. 

Very sleepy

Very sleepy. My work has not ended. But, I feel happy. There are a lot of mysteries in the world, and they will make me happier. 

Sleepy

 Very sleepy. My work has not ended. 

Time

One of my favorite movies is Tokikake, but it was released in 2006, so even if I talk to current students about it, they won't understand because they haven't seen it in realtime. It's scary.

Bragging

Some people just brag. We can see everything about them because they want to show much of themselves. After we have seen everything, there will be no more content and that's where they lose interest. 

Too many people do not understand this mechanism. Humans are not naturally interested in other people. Maybe, being humble does not mean making ourselves smaller, it means not showing our bottom. I was tired of people bragging, so I realized this. 

Mikan peel

My heart is tired, and I quickly run away to something easier. I have no way out, but I'm not motivated anymore. I want to enjoy sleeping or walking around for a while, but I must finish my work now. Because I feel that smell of mikan peel makes me wake up, I try to write codes I need with the peel. 

Ramen at midnight

At midnight, I ate two bowls of ramen with friends. Those testes of the ramen were very delicious and I enjoyed a great time. Both the bowls of the ramen included a lot of backfat and rich Tonkotsu soup. The tastes were rich, and the flavors were also good but one had a unique pork bone smell strongly. Anyway, it was a great experience. 

But, the next day, I realized two bowls were too heavy for me. Those were like a time bomb. 

Difficult to keep working hard

I still need to work hard but it is very challenging because many people who disturb me appear. So, I need a power that kills the disturbed and keeps me. Maybe the power is not violence because it does not make good results. Maybe the power would be indifference. 

Night

The day passes quickly. Every night comes soon. 

I found a restaurant in Shibuya that serves delicious miso ramen. It smelled like a high-quality cognac and was wonderful. Of course, there would be no alcohol in it. I think I'll go there when I work at night. Night comes soon. 

Coffee 907g ended in 3 weeks

I bought a 907g pack of coffee beans at Costco and the pack ended in 3 weeks. 3-week has 21 days and I consumed about 43g every day. Since I brew 5,6 cups of coffee from 43g coffee beans and I have two coffee breaks in a day, that means I drink 3 cups of coffee. The number of cups matches my feelings. Maybe I have too much drink coffee. 

Hungry

It's not all bad. I should pile small results up now. In recent weeks, my progress has not been going well. However, if I rearrange my small results, I must get a good result. I believe that and try to do this although I am really tired. 

Quit my favorite game

My morning routine is important, and it has changed in recent days because of the change in my life. When my phone had gone a few weeks ago, I stopped playing games in my morning routine. Then, my free time became longer than before, and I had no stress about not touching. An accident makes a change. This change may affect my life better. 

Unexpectedly friend appeared

I have forgotten to update this blog for two days. 

A few days ago, I went to a favorite izakaya. I expected that no people would appear at the time because it was heavy rain and not to eat, but really unexpectedly, a friend seated and drank a glass of sake. I was surprised. 

I have a strange connection with him.

This night

Many foreigners wore costumes around my office. I believed the people who wore costumes were only Japanese, but there were also many foreigners. 

Reading Reading Reading

I needed to read some papers to study my topic, but I did not read them until now, so I read them suddenly. It was a very tough job.

Pie

I had never heard the words "Savory pie" until today.  

Because I have little English vocabulary, I am trying to improve my skills, which means studying a little. Today, I used the word "pie" to indicate a dessert, but a friend did not understand which sweet or salty pie it was. I knew meat pie but I did not recognize meat pie as "pie" because it was not sweet, and so I did not understand why the friend asked me which sweet or salty is. Then, another friend taught me the words "Savory pie" which indicates any salty pie. So, I was surprised that pie indicates the texture but not any taste type. That was very interesting. 

VR

I've heard that thanks to VR avatars, people are now able to interact with people without having to worry about their innate or acquired appearance or functions, and I feel like that's true. So, humanity becomes more important than appearance in the VR era. 

Option

I was surprised that, while I lost many friends' addresses, no one had sent me a message about a lost connection, but the view count of this blog increased. That means many people enjoy this diary of an unknown person. I believe I got one when I lost another. In this case, I lost many friends list, but I knew other people connected with me. 

Walk

A few days ago, I walked 20km at midnight. I saw a few people sleeping on the road. I realized it had become a good season. I could not imagine sleeping outside in summer because it was too hot. Now, it was perfect to sleep. It is in good condition. 

New phone

Since my ex-phone was broken, I bought a new one. All account was initialized and I lost some friends' connections. If my friends who connected with only LINE or FB watch this blog, please send an email to nitomaina@gmail.com, this address is a managing address. 

Cannot access all data

Since my phone was broken, I cannot access the data on the phone. And, some connections with friends were lost because I did not save some accounts, such as Line, x, games, etc. I believe God said to me "You should concentrate on fewer things than now" and gave me a chance to make new better connections. 

Completely broken

My phone was completely broken now. 

My phone

Suddenly, my phone did not respond to any touches. Since I had no idea why. And, I was not sure which hardware or software had problems. 

Since I could not use it, I just gave it a break for more than 1 hour. Then, it reacted touches. But, the responses did not smooth, but it was possible to control. Actually, the display and touch panel on the phone were broken and had a lot of cracks. So, the hardware might have a problem with the touch response. Simultaneously, the software might have a problem since it reacted after a break. 

In any case, it was gone. I need a new one. 

Taxi

From early morning to midnight yesterday, I had no free time. I was exhausted, so I slept on a train that I was supposed to take back and the train returned to the opposite side. I woke up after the last train finished and I had to go back by taxi. The taxi fee was very expensive but there was another way. Very sad. 

A break

Yesterday, I did not write this diary because there are too many jobs. 

Recently, I have used nanobind to connect C++ and Python. Still, I did not know how to return multiple values from C++ functions to Python and I separated an optimal function into some tiny functions, which is not efficient. Yesterday, I really needed to implement multiple values returned from a function, and I read the nanobind document again. Then, I knew to use "tuple." It can be prepared with make_tuple in C++ and it can be received by Python. By using it, efficient coding was enabled. 

Voice

I was really surprised by a friend's voice when he sang a song. I knew voice was an important component of shows at the time. And, I really think to practice my good voice. It makes something move at an important timing. 

Known

When something benefits people, they praise it. When something is interesting for people, they scold. So, people have implicit logic. If you only think that this is directly connected to people's emotions, you may see that humans are creatures of emotion, but in reality, I believe that we are all narcissistic people who consider our own morals to be just. 

Therefore, being around people who only praise all will not accomplish anything and will often just be a waste of time.

Nice members

I feel lucky because I have such great friends. They support me when I face problems. 

Recently, I talked about various things with a foreign friend. I was able to learn a lot about Hong Kong. I won't write anything specific, but I realized that there are many things I don't know. I believe that "knowledge of ignorance" comes from good friends.

Driving

I had been in a villa with friends for two days. To get there, I drove about 200 km. The drive got me tired, but I saw fantastic night sights and sea views.

And, we had some events. One of them is a study meeting for future demands. I understood what the next stage was and should prepare for it.

Strange smell

I experienced a strange thing. At midnight, an earthquake occurred. A few minutes before the earthquake, I felt a cloudy smell similar to glue. When I felt the smell, I looked for where it came from but didn't find it. Maybe, the smell came from the earthquake. 

People have the ability to detect something before it happens. We have to be careful if we feel something is different from usual. 

A break

 I had to take a break but drank some cups of beer and sake. That made me exhausted. Good night. 

From a teacher

I started to study something of companies with a teacher for economy.

She tell me a lot of how to change mentality. 

I got a lot of messages but the main message is change to be good. For the change, we have to stop all before change.

It's a real.

Knowing difference is

Most people don't mind but any difference is important. 

For example, caramelization and the Maillard reaction are both reactions that brown foods. However, they are different. Caramelization is a word for only a change in sugar. On the other hand, the Maillard reaction is a strange phenomenon that occurs when amino acids such as proteins are heated. They are different reactions. However, many people use the word, Caramelization not to change sugar.

Poop and fart come from the same place, but they're different.

Recognizing a difference is important for living good. 

Beauty

I understood appearance is an important factor when people talk in person. I saw a friend who I did not see but I have talked with text. I expected the friend to be a man but one in the real is not a man. It was very surprised and I got high impact from the atmosphere of the person. Beauty is justice. 

Keeping

I faced an essential problem for days and I kept thinking of a good solution but it wasn't coming soon. Today, I got a trigger of the solution. A good idea comes after keeping thought. 

Maybe false but interesting story

I've heard an interesting talk about intelligence from a friend. According to this talk, adults wearing clothes that don't match their body or seasons tend to have borderline intelligence and the borderline people cannot consider their clothes and environment. That was very interesting. 

Surely, many kids wear clothes that don't match the environment and generally do not have high intelligence. There may be a relationship between intelligence and clothes. 

So, I looked for documents about this; however, no documents were particularly relevant. I wonder if it was just a few people's experiences because some websites and videos said only. That was interesting, but I am not sure if it is real. 

Bicycles

I saw a police officer stop bicycles on the sidewalk in Shibuya. The police officer said bicycles must not run on the sidewalk and people must walk pushing bicycles on the sidewalk. I saw a perfect scene because bicycles running on the sidewalk are dangerous.

Stop the trigger

Life is short. I know that. And, I know social media kills my important time. Also, I have realized video content kills more. Moreover, if I feel a fried brain, the effect is stronger.

But I can't avoid the attack now because I am mentally weak. Even if one content is a short video, recent media show a series of short videos, which makes strong stimulation. 

To protect myself, I need mental strength. As the first step, from now on, I will stop listening to music in the daytime. I am not sure if it's effective or not, but I realized music is one trigger to other contents in social media.

being strong

When I have felt tired, I become more aggressive. If I find a stupid thing or a joke in some media, I normally laugh and feel at peace, but when I'm tired, I often feel like I'm wasting my time and irritated. 

However, smart people don't approach irritated people, so I have to train my humanity so that I don't get irritated even when I'm tired.

Nothing special

I can't remember what I did all day. I wonder if I was sleeping.

Pangasius

I casually bought a fillet of white fish at a supermarket. The front side of the package showed it was just white fish, but didn't show what it was. I thought most of the white fish we could buy at the supermarket were deep-sea fish. I believed it was seafood and bought it. 

But when I had it the first bite, I noticed a difference. It was very tasty but it had a slightly muddy smell, and I felt it was more like a freshwater fish than a sea fish. Since I didn't experience the feeling from the tastes of sea fishes, I was curious about what fish it was, and I looked at the notation on the package. It showed Pangasius. Because I didn't know the name, I searched for the name. It was a catfish from overseas. 

I didn't know a catfish is tasty. That was an interesting happening. Because I don't usually buy fish, it was a rare case. In the rare case, I got excited and I realized I was lucky. Something new brings me luck. Surely, I will buy it again. 

Hurt

When I do something in a different environment, I have to use what I always used, otherwise I won't perform at my best. Today, I couldn't do my best and hurt myself a little.

I will consider this a knowledge and use what I am familiar with in the future.

Lost day

I felt bad yesterday because of too much alcohol and I was not able to work well. Though I do not have enough time to finish an important work by a deadline, drinking makes me lose more time. I will stop drinking more. I know I cannot stop but try it from now. Every challenge is valuable. 

Any challenge becomes an easy task if there is a partner for that. The most difficult point of any challenge is to make the partner. I can do it when I get one. So, by the day, I will give up. 

Morning

If I don't sleep, I can't concentrate. Humans need sleep.

However, I ended up drinking until morning. Very bad. Too tired. 

Verge

I couldn't stop coughing all day. My throat was itchy. That was cold but I thought it was on the verge of recovery judging from this condition. I am taking vitamins and staying up all night to heal and be active. A person on the verge shouldn't sleep.

Less time

I saw a bus stop move to a different place by redevelopment of the city. Because it was the first time, I was surprised. If I were a user who didn't know anything, I would not realize that. 

And when my shoelaces came undone and I tied them, I noticed my shoelaces were dirty. I have to clean them. 

I notice many things when I have less time.